20051118
wooo i highlighted my hair yesterdae, but this time i aint going for red anymore I dun wanna die and get slaughtered by my coach!!
I think this hair is alreadi gonna piss him off already. :\
but because I have to tone down the hair colour i dun think it is that nice anymore.
Oh wells, I shld just be satisfield la.
The competition is nearing, I am still throwing like pure shit la.
But nevermind I am suppose to psychol/bluff/cheat myself: I am the world record holder you know?!
LOL okay fine...
I had a secret training alone today, desperately trying to get back my form... threw about 40 times, and then spend the rest of the time doing weights, really damn weak now!
And den..
time for reward,
Went to mac's for a double cheeseburger, and den to island creamery where I tried the burnt caramel that jingqin reccomended, Not bad!
but it just taste too burnt, so cookies and cream will still be the best so far!
Went home, banged the piano for more than 2 hrs, till I got pretty hungry and went back to island creamery again for cookies and cream...
Shit i think i will die of excess fat/high blood pressure/diabetes pretty soon...
Sorri readers if this ain't what u expected!
Truth is! I am not in the right mind set to blog some cheem philosophical shit now!
Must be the ice cream, and the self-psychoing process towards the competition, thats why I am feeling damn rubbishy this days. ahahhhaha
hahahahha
hahahaahhah
posted @ 12:19 AM
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20051115
alrite.. here it goes.. i woke up and found that my wrist was quite in pain so i decided to not go for training today. Feel quite sad about it, for if i went today I would be playing water polo with them as well :D
LoL...
So i decided to go and visit my physiotherapist at tanglin. He was amazed at the amount of injuries that i actually had over the past 2 years, LOL. When i was going back home, i decided to pop up serene centre and try the ice cream, heard it was good. Stood there.. contemplated for a bloody long time and finally decided to buy the single scoope.
As i was walking outta serene centre, I took a big lick of the ice cream which i bought, cookies and cream. My gosh bloody hell it taste like heaven, AND DEN
the WHOLE BLOODY ICE CREAM just dropped onto the floor@$~!#~!$!
I was momentarily stunned. Standing there like a fool with an empty cone, I really felt like a kid whose toy car had just got robbed away. !@%^%
GRRRRRRAHHHH THis is so damn unfair@!! it tastes too bloody nice for such a thing to happen man.....grrrrrrrrrrrrr~!%$~@%!!
maybe my tongue is too strong
LOL
oh man..how unlucky.
posted @ 11:00 PM
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20051114
well. i decided to dedicate more time to my blog since its the holidaes, and at the same time of corse i hope that i can actually improve on my bloody English. LOL
Forgive me, i can't think of any cheem shit, so i guess i will just blog about todae? isn't this what everybody do?! haha
Today's training was pretty...slack . well only for me.
The throwers did many physical training which i couldn't do at all due to my bloody injuries. At least I am actually pretty happy today, for throwing was much less pain today after i tried wearing my wrist brace while training. Still...time is running out... its juz 9 days to my competition in Melbourne...
Honestly if I was given a choice i would rather withdraw from it...
Firstly, I would be a disgrace to Singapore.. seriously .. I feel that it would better of sending no one to represent sg, than to send someone who is badly injured and can't throw properly isn't it?
Secondly... its 10 days in Melbourne... the results of my competition would definitely affect my state of mind for the rest of the days there... And now that u noe that i am gonna screw it up, so its 10 days of hell! The defeat would definitely haunt me for the rest of the trip i am sure.
LoL
I can't believe what was supposed to be a really fun and exhilarating experience abroad has evolved into this kinda shit... I have actually raised the issue to my coach and asked whether i should withdraw from this competition... he said it was only once in 4 yrs and I should just go there for an experience...
Well... i decided to stick with it then... until . one of the runners actually injured himself during training and decided to withdraw.... And now... i am feeling really guilty staying in the team.
Rest assured i will still do my utmost best.. But may God help me . I do not want to train till i snap my wrist and back again... please...no..
posted @ 9:35 PM
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20051113
hmmm i guess i should just jot down my goals somewhere for this hols, and this perhaps shall be my blog! For if i jot it down on some paper or book i can sure it will just vanish or perhaps it would just fly away some day. lol
1. Piano
damnit man. i have so many scores of nice songs that i am dying to learn. However, I ain't up to the standard yet. damn saddening la. if only i didn't give up piano at that time....blah blah blah okay fine.
2. English
Oh hell yea i really need to brush up my english, its been sucking for far too long and perhaps my first step to doing that is to read more and more books.. haha..
3. Training...
Well i dun really have any specific goal for this actually... i just hope i can strengthen my wrist enough and prevent further injuries... well cause my injuries are pretty bad now. And i hope i wunt break it in the upcoming comp...
posted @ 12:11 AM
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20051112
alrite ppl... i have been slacking for the past few days, didn't feel like blogging. I discovered that whenever I mentioned in an entry "to be continued" that would refrain me from wanting to continue it the next time round
well! lets make this time an exception, haha.
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So... the question here is when is it the right time to love? I guess many of us have never really thought about this question, accepting love each time it comes and go. No doubt, accepting and rejecting love as it comes both have their pros and cons, and I personally believe that the pros and cons for each choice actually changes at different points in life.
I dun think i have the time to talk about each scenario as I am really tempted to get to bed and sleep at this late hour haha.. so lets just tok about sec or JC students who choose to fall in love while they are still attending school.
Love can indeed be a magical experience when you have experienced it during your teenage years. Isn't it amazing how enjoyable love can be? and Isn't it shocking how all this can just fade away in just a short period of time? Many of us just act and make decisions according to our feelings and emotions, but is this a viable option? I myself do not feel that it is completely right to do so.
When you have decided to love, decided to commit yourself to the one who you believed was you soulmate, Sacrifices will definitely have to be made. Getting into a relationship in your teenage years would actually cause you to drift apart from many of your friends for you definitely have to spend more time with your mate. Your studies, which should be your priority at this age, would most probably be affected as you progress into various stages of the relationship... Also, you may get yourself into a depression if the relationship happens to turn sour.
Besides learning and studying, isn't your secondary school and JC days the best opportunity for you to build connections and make as much friends as possible? Is it worth investing so much time on one person, who you would most likely lose contact with eventually, or is it better to spend more time on your friends in your school days, so that you would have a higher chance of being able to forge more lifelong
friendships?
After all... Is it worth it spending so much time and effort on someone who will only be your friend for a short period of time? This indeed is a very subjective question, but I believe that as you mature and look at things from a wider perspective you will most likely feel that the answer is no, but in rare cases of friendships that have faded with time, yes.
Even after knowing the sacrifices to be made, there are still many students who initially believed that their love was so great that all such sacrifices are worth it... However, many of them have seriously regretted their decision when their love was over.
I hate to be frank but this is reality, and I believe that reality has alwaes suck.
I believe none of us would wish to do things that we would regret. Indeed, it is tough to live a life without regrets...especially when our emotions and feelings can be swayed anytime, and can easily cause us to make the wrong decisions at the wrong time.
Perhaps while we are making such decisions in life it would be best to cast our feelings aside and learn to look at things from a more realistic point of view... For if we were do this, we would be able to look at things from a clearer view and make decisions that we would more unlikely regret
if you wanna express any views regarding this issue, please write it in the comments section :)
posted @ 3:08 AM
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20051103
Sometimes i just dun really understand why are there people who just can't live without a relationship for a second... ... Are such relationships the only reason why u live in this world, i seriously dun think so...?
I believe you and I have came across people who are forever complaining, feeling lost, feeling really depressed and demoralized when they just can't get the girl or guy of their dreams... At the start, perhaps it is right for you, as a friend, to console him or her... However, many of the times this just makes the matter worst. Your friend just continues grumbling till the extent that you felt really fed up.
Perhaps at this point of time you should really give him or her a big scolding to wake up his bloody idea. For if you do otherwise, you friend would just continue to drown in his own misery.
Frankly speaking, I have got myself into this shit once... but I have learnt...
And i believe that learning from your mistakes is actually the most important thing, but of course it would be even wiser to learn from the mistakes of others... ...
In our first love, I believe that most of us felt that love was indeed the way it was potrayed in fairytales. Such an exhilarating experience that even words cannot be used to describe it. However as time went by, hearts and promises of an everlasting love were still broken eventually... you began to feel that all that surrounds you are secrets and lies...
Though it is excruciatingly painful to accept the truth, but you still have to accept the fact that what happened in the past was no longer reality, ..but only a memory...
Is it worth giving up so much just for that shortlived happiness? If you truely loved him or her, and have Learnt much from the relationship, then i believe that it is a worthwhile one.
(to be continued)...
posted @ 10:54 PM
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20051102
ahhh hahaha... i think i should adopt to a new approach now, tags on the tagboards are meant to be replied aren't they? lol.
Life just seems... more peaceful now... I dunno why...
For the past few days, I have been playing piano, reading and training thats all I have done I did not even went out to play with my friends or whatsoever. This ....is indeed an unnatural occurance, especially when my parents are overseas and my O level examinations are over! I guess this is partly due to the fact that many of my friends are still having their examinations? and those who have finished are just too busy playing computer games, which I have already lost interest in, haha.
I was once a huge fan of computer games... haha i guess it happened since i was 5 years old, and i was bloodi good at it! haha
As for now... I rather not be good at it anymore..LoL.
Computer games... are just a waste of time in my opinion, especially the relatively newer games I observed. I personally do not feel that it is wise to spend time in such entertainment... after all they are fake, and are seriously of no value la friends...
I admit that i do get easily hooked onto games just like many other gamers, so i decided that i should not even touch the game once, or at least only play it once in a blue moon when I have to entertain my friends, yup yup...
Life is short my friend...
U do not necessary have to worry too much about the future, just live the present to the fullest so that you will have a great time looking back in future..
Its difficult to lead a life without regrets, so let it be you aim (:
posted @ 2:29 AM
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20051101
ok guys, to be honest with you, I am actually pretty upset over my Higher Chinese Paper... I was initially confident that I could score well this time round, since I felt that I handled many of the other sections pretty well, however I just could not accept the fact that I have committed such a silly mistake by not reading the question properly... Passing should not be a problem at all.... but i noe... i wunt be smelling an A grade at all...
Perhaps this is the way things are... Not all things would have a beautiful ending would they?... who wouldn't hope to get an A for his or last examination?.. haha.. I guess my struggle of learning chinese for the past 10 years... would just have to end up with a B. or even a C grade.
last year it was 64 Marks for a C6 grade...
A1...? I wouldn't wanna think about it
posted @ 1:02 AM
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